Sunday, September 11, 2011

Feelings Deceive; Faith Believes♥

Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life...

With all that I've been trying to deal with on my own, I needed some time spent with the two people that keep me grounded: Jesus and my family♥

Off we went to a magical kingdom in a town called Kissimmee, but is really part of Orlando, to celebrate life in the presence in the source of life: Jesus♥

We stayed at the Pop Century resort. Here come the visuals; get ready:

The view from our balcony of the pool.

Then after getting settled in our third floor room at the castle known to mere peasants as the Pop Century resort, we took some iconic pics around the grounds of the castle:

Mr. and Mrs. Potato Head♥

Trying hats at the resort gift shop:

LMAO, I love my mom♥

Afterwards, we relaxed by the pool. Here's me and my sister:

Me looking hawt♥

And then it started to rain so we got ready to leave but here's a funny pic taken by the pool: LMAO. Mean muggin'♥

After eating some ah-mazing Flipper's pizza and salad we departed to the kingdom; the Magic Kingdom. Before we left to go to the kingdom, I kept feeling insecure about how I looked and my outfit.

We arrived at the Kingdom and I got to see my favorite Christian singer of all-time, Francesca Batistelli in concert♥

Here's what she looked like from where I was in the crowd:

After the concert, we rode some rides together.

Here's me and Barbie(Jayde) on the Buzz Lightyear ride:
She got 51000 and I had 5700. My gun must've been broken. LMAO♥

Then, the emperor Zerg put us in jail:
We still look good behind bars♥

I really wanted to meet my future husband so I wore this shirt:

Then as if God wanted to erase all the insecurities I had before going to the Kingdom, I was in line for the Peter Pan ride and this guy stood and waited for me to round the corner, and as I did, he shouted so everyone on the ride could hear: "She likes church boys. Yeah, buddy!" It was super cute and made me feel beautiful again. Thank God for church boys, you know what I'm saying. ;-) And if you are that boy and you happened to find this blog on the internet, message me your digits on Facebook. My facebook link is in the bottom right corner of this site. :D

Anyway, we went from there to ride It's a Small World aka the happiest cruise to ever set sail♥

After we rode some rides, my sisters and my mom and I split up. My mom and I went to see Matthew West and Sidewalk Prophets in concert while my sisters went to ride more rides.

While watching Matthew West in concert and then even more with Sidewalk Prophets, I felt God speaking to me through the songs the artists were singing and I realized something. I forgot what it meant to have faith. With all that I went through the past two weeks, I was judging my happiness on temporal worldly things when I have Jesus Christ as my lord and savior and a joy that never ends living in my heart. Always remember: Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world(1 John 4:4)♥ That's why I always say: Feelings Deceive; Faith Believes♥

My mindset has now been changed from this weekend and I really must thank my mom again for taking us to this life-changing celebration and of course, ALL thanks goes to Jesus for giving me the strength I forgot I had. :)

Our tale concluded at Cracker Barrel where we filled our faces joyously:

Until next time, here's some words from the song "The Words I Would Say" by Sidewalk Prophets:
Be strong in the Lord♥
Never Give up Hope♥
You're going to do great things; I already know♥
God's got His hand on you so don't live life in fear♥
Forgive and forget, but don't forget WHY you're here♥
Take your time and pray♥

Love Times Infinity,
God Bless!

~Just Keep Swimming~

P.S. My sister and I have a new video up on Youtube from last weekend when she came to visit me at Leo before we decided to go home. Check it on our youtube channel:

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Becoming a skyscraper

Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life... This past week has been really messed up. You know in the beginning of the song Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae, it starts out: "It's been a really, really messed up week. 7 days of torture, 7 days of bitter. My girlfriend went cheated on me but she's a California Dime and it's time for me to quit her." That's what I dealt with since last Friday August 26th. I found out someone I was about to date betrayed me. I finally told him to get lost last week but ever since then everyone has been treating me like the bad guy.

I honestly felt ultimately betrayed by this person not because they decided they didn't want to date me. That doesn't matter. What matters to me is that I thought we were best friends and this person kept things from me that happened over the summer, talked to another girl just like he talked to me, and told some girl that has never liked me all my fucking business. That is the ultimate betrayal to me and it hurts to think I stooped so low to care so much about someone like you.

In all honesty, I am NOT the bad guy here. You can make it out to seem like I am but God knows the truth. Every day people lie to God too so keep telling yourself you believe in God. Your actions prove otherwise.

I am writing this blog because I feel like people I started to befriend at the start of the semester have decided not to be friendly with me anymore without even hearing my side of the story. What happened between me and him has NOTHING to do with you so I just want to say, if you choose him, you choose him. It's too bad I didn't get to know you liked I hoped to.

What's even sadder is that people judge me so much at this school when I have never done anything to them personally. Honestly, if you have a problem with anything that I've done to you, said about you, thought about you even, then come say it to my face. Trust me, I am not afraid to tell you how unimportant you are to me.

This isn't the first time I've been outcasted. I've actually been treated like an outcast all my life. I was bullied every year of school: K-12. The only reason I was bullied is because I'm not like anyone else. I am different. I do stand out. And that drives people nuts. They don't understand how someone like me can even exist. The only thing I can say to them is I exist because he exists. I live because he lived. I will never die because he already died for me. In case you are confused, I am talking about the one and only Jesus Christ, my personal savior and love of my life.♥

He is THE ONLY REASON I still exist today. Without him, I would have ended my life at the tender age of 12 but because of him, I chose to keep my head up and find my life purpose and continue to drive the world nuts with the fact that I'm still here.

And that's what I'm going to do now. If you truly are my friend, I want you to make it known that you are my friend. Be seen with me in public. If not, well your loss.

Despite statuses on Facebook and Twitter that stated I was leaving Saint Leo, that is not true anymore. If I leave Saint Leo, I would be giving all power to Satan himself and THAT I will NEVER do. I am staying here at Leo until I graduate because I want to make all the people that hate me on this campus squirm and feel uncomfortable for their insecurities and how they treated me in the past. I don't want to effect my karma but I sure will effect theirs.

Until next time: You can take everything I have. You can take everything I am like I'm made of glass, like I'm made of paper. Go on and try to tear me down but I will be rising from the ground like a a skyscraper♥

Love Times Infinity,
God Bless

~Just Keep Swimming!~