Wednesday, July 10, 2019

#WriterRevelations: Come As You Are (What I Learned So Far Working in an Office)

Well, how you doing?

I bet you thought I was never going to post another real blog post again.

Sorry if I made you feel alone and unloved for even one moment.

I had all intentions of posting my usual content but then it got harder with my full time job and all the things I've been up to this year...

I've been working. I've been doing Smart Cookie content. I even took a month or so off social media to focus on my writing career.

Basically, I've been just living day to day but I've been meaning to come back to share something special with all of you.

No, unfortunately, I am still single and not really looking to mingle.

I mean, if I met a guy who made me forget what day it is, then maybe...

I'm back because something I've learned working at my new job has really proved to be weighing on my heart.

I have witnessed what it is like to work in an office. I have witnessed what it is like to work for a small company. And I have witnessed how lonely it can be being a full-time employee.

There have been some months since I began this job where I did not know how I was going to face another day because my anxiety and depression got so bad, I couldn't see the light anymore.

I even considered quitting BUT God and his grace absolutely saved me from all that.

It all started when I lost sight of how much Jesus already loves me and how my identity is solely found in how he sees me.

Before this, like some high school freshman looking to become popular among the upperclassmen, I was eager to get these people to like me.

But from the first day, I literally felt like a fish out of water, struggling to breath and drying out from within. The only saltwater I could muster were tears that would sting at the corners of my eyes.

Yet, I didn't want to go back after that first day, but something said: Just Keep Swimming.

So I sat in the shallow puddle prepared to face a prolonged death sentence upon the shore wading in and out of the water, not sure what fate await me, I showed up that second day and a guy I met for like two seconds the day of my interview spotted my confusion and mustered not a word as he came to my rescue and that small but sincere act of kindness has stuck with me.

This guy, I am sure, has no idea that it was him who saved me from quitting and was the hero who showed me that this job was worth one last try. I've considered quitting a few times following his small kind deed but whenever I think of just leaving this job, I am reminded of him and how he literally didn't put me down in front of those customers, he never pointed out that I was an idiot and should be fired, but he just offered me help when he barely knew me.

And just like that, i witnessed a miracle within society and in a place where the cold tense air of poor communication could quite literally cut glass, and I have started to see why God put me there.

I am a writer with a heart for people. I know what it is like to feel unfit, unqualified, rejected, betrayed, talked about, used, abused, and hurt by the words and judgement of others. God put me here because he wants me to be a light for these people. To teach them how to communicate effectively but with a sense of empathy for the other person. To teach them how to encourage each other and work as a team. To smile, to inspire, and to pray for them. 

Of course, no matter where I go in life, I always want to leave it better than when I arrived but it seems like I walked into a rosebush if you will, the thorns and weeds were quite thickly ingrained in the way these people went about their day, that I almost felt that no matter what I did to brighten their day, it would and could not make a difference, hence why I've returned to the notion that quitting was the answer.

It honestly felt as though I may never have a friend here or someone I could trust but the craziest thing happened. Since I've been nothing but kind to these people, I've witnessed how powerful love given freely is to soften the hardest hearts.

And that guy who saved me from just going back to part-time employment and a life of being a literal starving artist, he is now someone I consider a friend. 

God asked me to pray specifically for him, build him up, and make him see his own infinite potential. 

And in the process of all that, I gained a friend.

I am someone who is open to just about anyone being my friend. I can honestly say that I don't judge people with the same standards that other people usually do. Like I don't care what you look like, what you believe in, or even who you love, if you accept me for the very strange bird that I am, I offer the same acceptance to you, no matter what.

Strange birds should always flock together.

Ultimately, I don't know how long God wants me here but for now, he does. And I will stay until the mission has been served here. Until he sends me to my next station of serving others.

If you happened upon this post, and you have no idea how to deal with someone who is just completely different from you. For example, they are materialistic, self-absorbed, entitled, and undermines and questions everything you do, I am reminded of Jesus when he said to turn the other cheek. 

Sometimes you would love to tell that irate co-worker: Get ready to clock out for the knock out.

Yet, that wouldn't solve anything. Anger leads to broken hearts and relationships.

If I've learned anything these last seven or so months it's this:

1. People aren't perfect and they will disappoint you.
2. Judging people unfairly makes you a weak human.
3. Respect people for who they are, not who you want them to be. (Any type of shaming toward someone is out of a critical spirit and actually stems from an inadequacy being sensed within yourself.)
4. Communicate with people honestly. And be the first to apologize even if you weren't directly at fault. And be the first to show mercy and forgiveness. Free yourself of all that negative bullshit.
5. When dealing with others, use your heart. Show compassion, always be kind, and empathize with people.
6. Stay true to yourself no matter who judges you. If they honestly are that hot and bothered by the way you live or do things, then you don't need them in your life. Be polite if you have to continue working with them but remember not everyone you meet is meant to be a friend. Some people choose misery as their default setting. Such a pity really.
7. Love yourself. Accept yourself. Believe in yourself. After all, A GREAT GOD made you in his image so there is GREATNESS in you.
8. Go the extra mile.
9. Stop allowing fear to keep you from opening up to people.
10. A warm smile looks attractive on most anyone.

Other notes about being a good employee include to show up, don't be late, speak up, don't argue, do what your asked, and don't steal. Also, the adult world is plagued with people who will ask you to do something and then take credit for your hard work, smile and let them. God's got bigger and better plans for you on the horizon.

Keep me in your prayers and if you need a specific prayer, please comment below or message me.

Until next time, remember:

PS: Will try to not be a stranger here. Thank you for welcoming me back with open arms.

No comments:

Post a Comment

Thanks for reading/caring!