Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Instead of giving up; Go One More♥

Happiness is a form of courage...You ever feel like giving up? Like if you quit now; it won't matter. Something better will come your way even if you're waiting the rest of your life?

Yeah, this is how I've felt lately. It's a common mindset for me at the beginning of every new semester just because I doubt God's plan for me sometimes. I know I shouldn't but sometimes who God wants me to be and who I am are two very different people.

Yet, I'm beginning to realize that's the beauty of life. You can change. You can become better. All with God's help. You don't have to do anything alone. God created each of us so he can love us, and one way he shows that he loves us is he wants to take care of us. He wants to deck us out in the nicest clothes, introduce us to that guy or girl that is meant to change our life, bring an opportunity when the situation looked completely bleak, and make a shift when we are at the bottom of the barrel.

Suddenly you are sitting at the bottom of the bottom and you meet someone who gives you that job you've been waiting months for, a guy smiles at you when you thought no one would ever notice you romantically, God can make a shift when it appears that nothing is possible.

As most of you know, I was afraid to go to my marketing classes because I was afraid to be called on in class. Yet, once I went to class I realized there was nothing to ever be afraid of because I am smarter than I give myself credit for.

I went out for Greek Life and it wasn't meant to be because I was turned down because my GPA wasn't good enough. Their loss, I think because I have a lot to offer Greek Life but in my opinion, I always knew they were too elitist for my taste.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make here is mostly for myself but if it helps you in some way then I've accomplished more than I wanted to. Sometimes, I don't always make the right choice. Sometimes, I give up to easily. Sometimes, I sleep in instead of going to class. Sometimes, I don't speak up when I want to say something. Sometimes, I allow people to speak down to me when they have no place to. Yet, God can turn any wrong into a right. So when you feel like giving up instead give it one more try. That try might be the one to set you on that shift I was talking about earlier.

Next Friday, I go to the thyroid doctor and find out how my thyroid levels are doing.

Pray for me with my classes and my health.

If anyone would like me to pray for them, comment below and I'll add you to my prayer list.

Until next time, remember God will fight the battle for you, And you? You keep your mouths shut! -Exodus 14:14♥

Love Times Infinity,

God Bless!

~Just Keep Swimming~

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Becoming Who God Wants Me To Be♥

Happiness is a form of courage...I'm back at Leoland, and badder than ever. Bad in the good sense of the word, if there is one.

    On Monday night, I came back and moved all my stuff (somehow it seems to multiply. Thanks to the Blessing!) back into my apartment.

   In the process of moving back in, I found out I had a new RA and a new roommate.

   It seems like this new year is going to be all NEW which I'm more than fine with.

    On Tuesday, I started my first day of classes. Both of my marketing classes are at 8 a.m. which is a struggle in itself because I love sleep but I realized now that I've been in college for four years that I like being done early in the morning so I can be up and get more done throughout the day.

    My first marketing class though is marketing research, and I'm really nervous about it because it seems to be a lot of work and a lot of group work and speaking in public as well as a presentation at the end of the semester.

 My second class on Tuesday/Thursdays is a Tourism class which I also have a group project/presentation in. Yet, it's not as much work as the marketing class so it will be educational but relaxing after my high-strung marketing class.

My only class on Monday/Wednesdays is my other marketing class called Social Media Marketing. I also will have a group project/presentation in this class at the end of the semester, as well. Yet, I know the professor and some of the people in the class so I feel better about this marketing class than the prior one.

Overall, I see a pattern. Lots of presentations, lots of group work, lots of communication and interaction.

I was going to drop the marketing research class at first because I was so scared of it but I've realized God is going to use this semester to bring me out of my shell so I won't be shy anymore.

    All my life I've struggled with being shy because my classmates never really liked me, and people I considered friends always walked out on me when I needed them most so I've always just stuck to being independent for the most part, and doing most things by myself.

   For example, one thing I really enjoy doing is sitting by myself in the cafeteria. Even if there are people there I know, I will choose to sit by myself because I like my company. Plus, I just like to eat and go be productive so this works best for me.

    Tonight, I sat next to this table full of people. I'm not going to put anybody on blast but I wasn't bothering them. I just sat at the table behind them so I could quick eat and go back to my room in order to finish organizing my Ipod library since I got a new laptop yesterday.

   I was eating and minding my own business when the girl at the table behind me goes, "Oh that girl probably hates people. She's antisocial. Oh, and who is she texting? Her mother?"

   For some reason, people have always misunderstood why I sit alone. I don't sit alone because I'm avoiding people. I sit alone because people avoid me. Plus, I'm confident enough to sit by myself and not worry about whether people think I'm antisocial or not.

And to that girl who wanted to say something about me because it was so necessary, yes, I was texting my mother. She's one of my best friends. And she always wants to know that I'm eating and eating good. Sorry you don't text your mom and she doesn't care enough about you to text you to ask if your eating. Must be a sad life you lead.

Thank God I'm blessed with parents that care about my well-being and check up on me a lot even if I am twenty one years old.

Until next time, "The people, who are trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Music is my way to light up the darkness." - Bob Marley ♥

Love times Infinity,

God Bless!

~Just Keep Swimming~

Saturday, January 5, 2013

It's a New Day♥

Happiness is a form of courage... First off, Happy New Year to everyone! I know I'm five days late but there's reasons for that. Good reasons. Read on to find out..

In case your wondering my New Year's Eve was bittersweet. Bitter because it started with a sore throat that led its way into my new year as a lovely uninvited sinus infection. I've been bumming it all day in order to get better because I head back to Leo on Monday.

My New Year's was sweet because I got to watch Justin Bieber on New Year's Rockin' Eve and ring it in with the people who matter most to me: my family.

 Me and my baby Hazel.

 Hazel's so adorbs.

 Geniveve is so beautiful. 

 Me and my sister's drinking Mom's famous punch.

I can already tell 2013 is going to be different because I've already had such an incredible victory happen to me yesterday.

Yesterday( and the reason my blog was so late), I went to the thyroid doctor and found out that my biopsy came back cancer free and my blood work shows that my thyroid hormones are normal right now. I go back in a month to check my blood again but I'm finally feeling normal again. Praise God!

With God's help, in 2013 I resolve to:
1. Write a bestselling creative nonfiction novel
2. Show up for all my classes or at least stop skipping for silly reasons
3. Stop the negativity
4. Valuing myself and those that celebrate me
5. Get back in shape
6. Get a great marketing internship
7. Stop being afraid to be myself because hey, I'm awesome!
8. Turn my "I can'ts" into "I can" (Phil. 4:13)
2013 is the year of Great Grace so I know that there is nothing God won't do for me, and I don't plan on letting God down either. -Whose with me?
 Even my best friends think so. lol.

Before I leave you guys with a final thought I would really love it if you checked out MKTO's new music video:THANK YOU for watching! MKTO stands for Misfit Kids and Total Outcasts and also doubles as the initials of its two members, Malcolm Kelly and Tony Oller.

I'm so proud of how far my friend Tony Oller has come since his Disney Channel days. He never let rejection stop him from pursuing his dream in music and now he's finally signed and destined for greatness!

Hopefully, I will get to meet him in person one day! :D

Until next time, I've got a joke for you that I read in Tina Fey's book Bossypants:
"Two peanuts were walking down the street, and one was a salted."♥

Laugh more this year because life is too short to do anything but ENJOY your life every day.

Love Times Infinity,
God Bless!

~Just Keep Swimming~